A phone call with a friend turned from talking about the difficulty of her work and life to expressions of longing for something more life giving. As she thought about how that might look, I heard the “Can it be?” hopefulness in her quiet tears.

Can there be a life lived differently than what I know now?

Can my hopes for the future be more than a dream?

Can I be more confident in who I am—show up and offer my perspective, voice, and gifts?

Can my contributions matter? Can I matter?

Can I let go of expectations to be like someone else and enjoy being the woman God created me to be?

Can I enjoy life and breathe in restfulness, joy, and peace?

Yes, that and so much more. God hears our personal expressions of the question, “Can it be?” He knows each of us and the dreams and hopes for fullness of life that tug at our soul . . . and how uncertainty can feel as if we are walking in the dark.

I’ve had a similar list of can-it-be wonderings that I’ve kept tucked away in my heart. Snatches of the longings spill out in vulnerable moments, reminding me that I still have more to discover, more to move toward, more to lean into with God. He reminds me of the beauty and gift of His presence as life and as light in my darkness, as the one who invites me to be His light bearer.

“In him was life, and the life was the light of men.
The light shines in the darkness, and
the darkness has not overcome it.”
John 1:4-5

“Again Jesus spoke to them saying,
‘I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me
will not walk in darkness but will have
the light of life.'”
John 8:12

“For at one time you were darkness, but
now you are light in the Lord.
Walk as children of light.”
Ephesians 5:8

I continue to be in process, learning to comprehend and trust all of who He is and the timing of His work and grace . . .

How when the answers to my questions and cries seem to be met with silence, He is not absent. He is present and holding me, drawing me to deeper, truer places with Him.

How He does not want me to rush through pain or the darkness of the moment, but in the darkness to find Him there.

How His shape and unfolding of what my life looks like is formed, in part, on my knees in prayer and in the walking out of Jesus’s invitations in the small steps of today.

Where He leads, will I follow?

Reposted and adapted from www.PresenceNow.Be–another site where Jan blogs.